Untitled…Just Because

Hi. It’s around 3:33 PM on a fair-weathered Monday and I suddenly find myself clicking the New Post tab of my blog dashboard. And yes, I’m at my office desk. I thought I just needed to write though I don’t really know where this would lead. Everything is going to be random. By the way, I’m munching on some unpopular Cheese Corn Snack which serves as my late lunch. Pathetic. Rationale: I had a meeting during break which meant I had to hold on to my hunger for about an hour. Anyway, is this even new?

Hmmm. As of the very moment, my head feels a bit heavy due to the frequent skipping of meals I’ve been unintentionally giving myself. Plus, I lack sleep. I’ve only had 3 hours last night. Why? Because I couldn’t effin’ feel the urge to doze off. I just ended up watching two Korean movies which made me laugh and cry. Crazy. And lately, I wished I was born Korean. LOL.

Last week was a bit stressful. It’s that time of the month where a lot of things should be finished plus PMS. I have the worst symptoms so just imagine how many dragons have been possessing me lately.

And oh! I have about less than two weeks to prepare for a getaway trip out of the PI with one of my BFFs. I am so looking forward to this relaxation time simply because I deserve it. I’ve been working my ass off for the past year and a week away from figures and analysis would really be therapeutic.

Lately, I’ve been thinking about so many things. Plans. Wishes. Regrets. Questions. You know what I mean. The usual scramble your brain gets once in a while  - most of which occur during the silent hours of dawn. It always disturbs me to think that at 26, I am still far from stability. Real stability at that. What could be wrong? Is it my lifestyle? Is it my lack of enthusiasm towards my work? Is it because I desperately want to do something else? Those are only some of the many questions that flood my deteriorating brain every now and then (insert animated character with a gazillion question marks on his head). Oh how confusing and frustrating life could get sometimes. One day I feel hyped the next I become so depressed. LOL.  I guess I am just impatient enough. I want to hurry things and wish I could get everything right away. But hey! Things don’t always work that way. It’s true that some are lucky enough to have the time of their lives at an early stage – which I don’t really despise because I know God gives blessings to those who deserve it despite of how we see them acquire it. So my hypothesis is that I still need to develop several traits that would make me worthy of the things I want. Do you even get what I’m trying to say? Anyway, so yes. That’s basically how I assure myself. Patience and faith in the will of the One above. At the right time. At the right time.

…got to go. Did I make sense??